Sunday, October 21, 2012

Music on Davisville



When the Salvation Army band was not rattling our windows with their brief Lord's Day parade along Davisville Avenue, our walls were constantly vibrating from inside with music from the sublime to the silly. We had a piano for kids to start hammering on as soon as they could sit upright. We could turn on the radio to hear popular hits like “The Three Little Fishes” or soul-stirring symphonies under the baton of conductors like Stokowski.

Our collection of 78 rpm discs ranged from Rudy Vallee crooning “Mmmm, Would You Like to Take a Walk” to Frank Crummit’s “Frankie and Johnny” to the jazz collected by Peter from age ten, all dominated by Dad’s ever expanding collection of classics.

Relatives who could sing and play piano and banjo often brought live music into our living room. Many an evening when I was very small, I lay awake after bedtime, listening to cousin Mary’s charming mezzo soprano, with our Aunt Jessie accompanying her at the piano downstairs. Mary let a song sing itself, its cadences falling and rising as it moved her voice along - moving  listeners and accompanist as well. A Highland lullaby, “Husha-ba, Birdie, Croon, Croon”, soaked itself into my bones.

Uncle Jack’s magnificent baritone voice could handle Handel, then switch as effectively to a rollicking sea chantey or a music hall gem garnered in London on leave during in the first World War. We often clamoured for the calm beauty of “Where’ere You Walk”, the nostalgia of “Road to the Isles” and “Trade Winds”, or “Oh, Mr. Brown”, where Jack imitated a simpering, but forward, young lady, impatient of her much too gentlemanly caller.

Our ornately carved piano had a moveable keyboard that allowed us to adjust  pitch, but also tended to slow down slightly the action of the keys. This dear old upright never had one day of rest. I still have a photo of Peter's spaniel, Honey, lying in the crook of the left-hand support and the back of the piano, looking up at me with melting eyes as I stumble through a favourite Bach piece or a new folk song discovery.

My two brothers and I each took a year or so of lessons, then continued on our own. My younger brother had the nimblest fingers, and a quick ear. Within a couple of months of finding his way around a guitar, clarinet or flute, he could play with any tune that struck his fancy, in any style, even on our sluggish piano.

Some children bring home stray animals. I collected stray songs, beginning in kindergarten with "The Friendly Beasts", a carol about a donkey, a cow, a camel, a sheep and two doves. When I brought them home, my parents had all the advantage of a menagerie with none of the attendant barnyard noises or smells. They didn't have to walk or feed anything. All they had to listen to was my piping voice, and be glad it was not caroling the cumulative joys of "Old MacDonald's Farm."

I became a tireless collector of traditional folk music from all over the world and across Canada. I was as absorbed in learning new tunes with words in their original tongue as the lads who tinker with cars in their driveways are intrigued by engines. A song from Mongolia about a horse fascinated me with its giant leaps between notes. I learned how to pronounce Hungarian well enough to sing, although the exact meaning of all the words was beyond me. At least I understood the French and German songs in my collection.

The bulk of my folk repertoire was in English, however - from all over the British Isles and North America.  Irish songs like “My Love’s an Arbutus” were among my mother’s favourites when I sang in the evenings to the accompaniment of Dad’s home-crafted authoharp.

My ingenious father had created his own autoharp, enhanced with a much wider range of harmonies than available on commercial models. We could perform classics with all the original chords, as well as simple folk music. Dad’s gifted  fingers wove a variety of rhythmic patterns.

I mentioned the sublime and the ridiculous. “Rudolph, the Red-nosed Reindeer” was not one of the Friendly Beasts who played their part in a story two thousand years old. The imaginary reindeer with a nose that glowed bright in the dark sprang into fame, and to the top of the Hit Parade “one foggy Christmas Eve” in the 1940s. The tinny little tune to the tango rhythm didn’t catch on with one snobby teenager - me, already on the Bach beat.

My Saturday job at Christmas took me to the middle of Simpson’s Toyland, where the popular Rudolph counter reverberated with several versions of the Rudolph song in different keys, all at once, while we sold Rudolph pencil boxes, music boxes, cuckoo clocks. The tune that I cringed at came back to taunt me years later, in India, of all places.

Wednesday, October 3, 2012



Helen Heubi’s Thanksgiving Letter, October, 2012

Thanks for:

- the maples  turning colour up in Muskoka, where I lived for the last 17 years or so.

- selling my house in Gravenhurst to a young family.

- finding a lovely apartment in Orillia within days of the sale

- Mary, who found the new digs with me

- Eric for taking a day off work to pile my heavy stuff into truck and trailer, getting it safely to Orillia, transferring it to my new place, with Mary

- Janet LoSole, Jocelyn and Natalie for getting me out of the movers and shakers' way by taking me out for a latte and shopping.

- Lloyd Stringer for sharing with me the bounty of his garden. I had never tasted ground cherries before. Those tomatoes springing spontaneously from the compost are a wonder.

- the Lostrins (Janet, Lloyd, Jocelyn and Natalie) for their company at a meal straight from their garden at Foxfell.

- Lloyd for guiding me by cell phone from Noble Towers to Foxfell by shortcuts, a stroll of about 10 or a sprint of 5 minutes.

- Mary and Eloïse for bringing me another load of household goods

- Mary and Oliver for delivering another truckload of my things

- Vianet, my internet server, for providing me with instant internet and phone service, once the technician had installed a “dry loop” to by-pass Bell, and for my new phone number 705 393 3910, a Barrie number that connects without long distance charges to Gravenhurst and Orillia as well and also echoes my street number.

- the autumn colours beginning to show in Orillia, which I left in 1973. Yes, you’re right. I’ve come a full circle back to Orillia after nearly 40 years.

- YouTube, providing gorgeous choral works to sing along with, complete with score on screen. Examples: Angels' Carol: https://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&feature=endscreen&v=KOIhzqutZuQ

Well, that’s a start of my Thanksgiving for October, 2012.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Weeding out the Bad News and Cultivating the Good



First of all, is there any other kind of news than the bad? Occasionally, yes, a “brightener” is allowed space, but can be quickly chased out of a news broadcast or written report by Breaking News of some disaster or by a dire development in an ongoing “story”.

A great mentor, Bijan Anjomi, recommends a total divorce from news reports on any media, for the good of our health and our peace of mind. This makes sense. We all know that the news media live on what’s wrong with us, and Them, and anything happening in the world, or our community.

The fact is, however, that the news can fascinate me, and has ever since  my year of training as a journalist at the University of Western Ontario in the late 1950s. We gathered around the teletype machine just outside the J-lab to glean the latest on the Hungarian revolution. We stayed up all night to follow the US election results. I would have to check history to find out who won in 1956, because it wasn’t the outcome that mattered to me then. It was the process, the ups and downs of the election returns, the excitement, the suspense that kept me rapt over and wrapped around the teletype.

All that cascade of thrills was long ago and far away when I spent happy months in the back country of Provence, far from newspapers. I had to find excuses for this disloyalty to my profession of journalism. It had already dawned on me that news items fade in importance rapidly. There was a certain toll on my emotions from the roller-coaster effect of a crisis developing, peaking and diminishing - at least according to the media. I could tell myself that the whole package of a newscast on television depends on how the stories are gathered, shaped and delivered. I can still remark cynically that the language of the news anchor is deliberately designed to poke my fear buttons. And so, I argued to myself that I wouldn’t miss all the drama, and might even enjoy something like peace of mind. This proved true.

Months after my blissful stay in Provence as a recluse, I shocked a friend with my ignorance of the assassination of a bishop in Africa. That was the only world event that escaped my notice while wandering over hills fragrant with wild lavender and thyme.

Over the years since that experiment far from the media I have been developing my sensitivities in various directions - some new to me, and finding I feel the better for it. I had been reading about our hollow selves, but I couldn’t take such philosophizing too seriously. It made me think of Gilbert’s play, “Patience”, where the Poet declaims a ditty about being “hollow, hollow, hollow” and asks the fetching milkmaid if she too feels hollow. Patience replies, “Thank you, sir. I have dined.” If there is a hollow in my inner being, all the better. That’s where my imagination is free to play - imagination that has been growing muscles.

My inner world and the world around me have been on a collision course like a couple of galaxies meeting and duking it out between pieces of themselves and mostly steering clear of each other, easily avoiding any direct impact. It can be distracting. Occasionally as I scan the news out of the corner of my eye, my imagination will seize upon an item that triggers a powerful emotion, like something bad happening to a baby. My imagination fills in the horrors around the details given in the news report, and won’t let them go. Never mind that there are millions of happy babies living sweet lives, loved and cherished, gurgling and opening innocent eyes on a world of wonders. I have to teach myself to focus on these children, and stop imagining that I could have done something to protect the little one in the terrible news report.

Discipline dictates that I must focus more and more on what’s going well in the world - beginning with me. As Richard Bartlett writes, the universe will simply echo the whining and complaining of my Inner Brat when things don’t go my way. Perhaps until I get inspired by what I do want, I could step back and take a break.

I wonder what’s going on in my inner garden? Neglect? Weeding out of emotions evoking the worst of the past? Cultivating the ground for seeding sweet blooms, and watering the places where they will soon send up delicate green shoots? Can I cultivate the patience to give seedlings time to show themselves, no matter how tempted I may be to yank them up to see how they’re doing?

How’s your garden these days?

Sunday, January 15, 2012

SEAWEED À LA PROVENÇALE

Who was it got the dippy notion
of plumbing briny depths of ocean
to raise this seaweed from its bed,
and in his ancient wisdom said,
“Seaweed is a dainty dish,
more delectable than fish,”
and, having taken this posish,
left us with these lanky strands
dripping from our hapless hands?

Before it passes through our lips,
are we to cut it into strips,
or do we simply boil and boil
and also fry? If so, what oil
will do the trick to make it tasty?
By no means let us now be hasty.

Such culinary challenges
do not really need unhinge us.
This one leave us quite undaunted.
“Just what I have always wanted!”
are the words we hope to hear
round our board, resounding clear,
as the connoisseurs proclaim:
“Seaweed! Yet another name
to conjure with in cooking books
and rouse your neighbour’s envious looks!”
As, with lightly racing pulse,
you graciously serve up your dulse.

While I was writing these verses, my husband got down to business in the kitchen. He seized the seaweed and cut it into strips, stared at it meditatively, then sliced the strips into diamond-shaped pieces. These he fried lightly in olive oil, adding soup flavouring, fennel, thyme, garlic and tomato sauce, but deliberately  omitting salt. He topped up the  mixture with water, covered it and simmered it gently until tender. Then we tasted it.
It tasted like seaweed soaked, fried, smothered in tomato sauce and herbs and gently simmered until tender.

©Helen Heubi, 1977

Monday, January 9, 2012

Versatile Blogger Award

Back in December just before the Christmas rush (excuses, excuses), I received a magical message from Mary Chase, Ph.D. I had been graced with the Versatile Blogger Award.

I am now notifying you that I have accepted this award, which qualifies me to pass it on to each of you. You are in random order with at least one of your blogs:

Leticia Austria
http://spectrumofperspectives.blogspot.com

Jennifer Jilks
http://mymuskoka.blogspot.com/

Karen Harbaugh
http://pollyannaofkaren.blogspot.com/

Nancy O’Carroll
http://www.femininepowerplay.blogspot.com/

Monika Aebischer
http://theolivesparrow.typepad.com/

Justice Bartlett
http://justice-bartlett.blogspot.com/

There are a few rules, below, if you like. You will find them by scrolling down in Mary's email. I am adding my perspective to them here:

Thank you, Mary, for this delightful honor. In your honor I have even used American spelling, at least in this paragraph. I may backslide later. For the information of the other recipients your blog is: http://nulla-mary.blogspot.com/

You dedicated your blog with tongue in cheek to one of your (and my) anti-heroes. I dedicate mine and my websites to all who are prepared to read at least one page of them and who actually do so. I love to be read, don't you all? Some of mine are: http://itllcometome.blogspot.com/, http://cometothegravenhurstoperahouse.blogspot.com/, http://greenwoodsongs.blogspot.com/, http://alongwoodlandpaths.blogspot.com/. My websites: http://intoverse.com/, http://eccolibrium.com/,
http://pro-coaching.ca/

My request: if you are not in touch with each other yet, please do write each other welcoming emails, and let us know all your blogs and websites.

Seven things about me:

I. I look forward to Isaac Tigrett's unveiling of his new project on the Mystic Inn of the Seventh Ray on 1 February 2012. We are into sevens here. His website is: http://www.mysticinnofthe7thray.org/

2. I have just finished re-reading Jeoffrey Kendal's autobiography, The Shakespeare Wallah, and feel like starting it all over from page one.

3. I'm thrilled that I've been able to create three websites with an obsolete version of RapidWeaver on my 2005 Mac mini with the now obsolete Tiger OS. Obsolete or not, the effect can be immediate. If I want to change a comma, I can go right in there and do it myself. Sometimes with the very obliging customer service help of FatCow.

4. About great singers, I went backstage to say hello and goodbye to Elisabeth Schwarzkopf after her farewell concert in Toronto. We established that we were both going to live in Switzerland and would yodel to each other from one mountaintop to another. What a great lady with a swift sense of humour. From her sotto voce discussion with her husband as I drifted up to be first in line I gathered she did not appreciate the "bravo man" in the gallery, who effectively destroyed every pin drop silence that she should have had at the end of a particularly moving piece. So, I wish to all singers and other musicians many perfect pin drops to come.

5. My funniest backstage encounter was after a concert by Lois Marshall in Barrie, Ontario. Her accompanist, Weldon Kilbourne, introduced me as one of his pupils, and we all broke out in raucous laughter at the sight of both me and Lois wearing a leg cast each. I had fallen down some stairs and she in her bathtub. That looked as if I were carrying hero worship a little too far. A great lady, fine musician and superb singer she was.

6. Mary believes in reincarnation. Even before I was sure I did I used to take people back into possible past lives. Now I do, and still do after further research and training, I have learned that with Past Life Regression (PLR) - you never know what's going to happen. The tour guide into the past has to be totally on the alert and ready for anything. I love it.

7. It's OK for the Facilitator in a PLR to go partly into trance as the time traveller does completely. What a relief to learn this from a top level PLR guide. And, yes, it is not only possible but quite desireable to be both in trance and highly alert.

Thank you all for delighting with your writing. Be reading you soon.

Cheers,
Helen


This is what Mary Chase wrote to me:
Sunday, December 11, 2011
The Versatile Blogger Award
How nice is this? Fellow blogger and writer extraordinaire, J.D. Mader, has made me a recipient of the very distinguished Versatile Blogger Award. For a very good read, check his blog, Avoiding the Stairs. I can only say that I am humbled and would like to dedicate my award to Newt Gingerich, in hopes that he will pass along his lead in the Republican race to another more worthy than he (but still beatable) -- as I am doing in  accordance with the rules of this reward.

Yes, there are rules.

1. Thank the blogger who honored you and be sure to link to his or her blog, as I have above. Thank you, J.D. You are a gem.
2. Share seven things about yourself.
3. Pass the award on to five deserving bloggers.

So seven things... I am advised these ought to be witty, but will hope readers will settle for succinct.

1. I am currently reading Catherine the Great: Portrait of a Woman by Robert K. Massie. Next on the bedside table is Death Comes to Pemberley by P.D. James.
2. My favorite line from a movie: "Are you a good witch or a bad witch?"
3. It took me nine years to get a B.A. because I kept changing my major (classical studies, French, drama, folklore, English).
4. I love opera. When I was twelve I sneaked backstage and got Joan Sutherland's autograph.
5. I also love Willie Nelson. He hugged me once in Augusta, Maine.
6. I believe in reincarnation.
7. Last time, I didn't.


And now, the next recipients of the Versatile Blogger Award are:
Helen Heubi
Bill Woolum
Tish Jett
Tom Kepler
Peter Pappas

So, newly honored writers, enjoy your moment in the sun. Speak only the truth. Go forth and enlighten.

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Caregivers

Having just turned 81 two days ago, I still have much to learn. Today, I listened to a free session on colds, flu and the like, and tapped along with the EFT expert invited by Jessica Ortner, who first learned about EFT (Emotional Freedom Techniques's Tapping Solution) when she was deep in bed with a nasty flu. I got some insights that I want to note, although I am already free of some of the beliefs addressed on Nick and Jessica Ortner's site.

For example, I no longer believe I have to get the Christmas Cold. I haven’t had a headache worth mentioning in years, or even much of a cold - with a couple of exceptions, as when I was briefly at Friends’ House in Toronto a few years ago to take some course or other and Judith Amundsen looked after me so beautifully. Rita Woods came to my rescue on another Toronto visit. Both loving, smart homeopaths.

Now I have to remember next time I go to the Big Smoke to cloak myself with Light when diving into a large bowl of a few million beings radiating all kinds of vibes. I wish I had known about that when teaching in large high schools, but I had no idea then.

Up here in Muskoka, a place with a heritage of healing, I do not pay attention to all those tv ads that assume we are going to get sick. And there are a lot of them for me to close my eyes to. I don’t take the flu shot because after the confusion a couple of years ago it wasn’t clear how beneficial or how harmful it might be.

Patterns of Illness
The EFT expert on the Ortner recording did bring out the question of patterns of illness from childhood. When I was seriously ill, very young, I picked up on my mother’s anxiety a lot. There was something positive in the air too - probably my angels and guides and God, that brought me, and her, through.

When of school age I had chronic colds. This could have been through allergies to coal dust, milk, who knows. It got so I felt punished more than cherished because of Mom’s repressed resentment of having to look after me, as her mother had looked after her younger sister Amy, who was “always ill”. As a young widow, Grandma had a lot of anxiety because of the death of little Henry at two, of diphtheria. She didn’t want to lose any more children. Mom resented Amy, who she thought was a sissy and a spoiled brat hypochondriac.

Sadly, after her marriage Mom developed asthma, and had severe attacks. The steroids prescribed for that may have affected her heart. She died in her early sixties. Amy died younger than that of cancer, probably contracted when painting airplane dials with radioactive chemicals during WWII. Several of the women on that job gave their lives, years later, for the war effort, although it was never proved, that I know of. Mom’s and Amy’s father died young of cancer, so it was also in their background. Two of their brothers also died of cancer, perhaps the third one too.

Now that I look back at my own childhood pattern of illness, I felt partly punished, partly cared for when ill. I kept myself busy with Book of Knowledge, building with toy logs or minibricks or Orphan Annie’s student flying kit, or dolls. Tried not to be a nuisance. I eventually lost the ability to know for sure whether I was sick or not, or to tune in accurately to my body. I kind of took over my mother’s questioning attitude: “Are you really sick or are you just imagining or pretending?” It became more and more difficult to know as I grew into adulthood.

During my first year of  teaching I was living in Midland and coming back to Toronto on weekends. I still had a room in my parents’ house. One weekend it became evident that I had caught the measles - again. Mom expressed quite frankly how she felt about nursing me and bringing me my meals for a whole week. “Your home is not a place to come to when you’re sick.” Huh? I covered up the deep hurt feeling at hearing this with a hardened, cynical decision to re-wonder how welcome I was in my parents’ house. Not. Less and less over the next few years until after my marriage to Paul, when I became kind of acceptable.

Going through a session of tapping (Emotional Freedom Technique) can bring out all kinds of old stuff that it is high time to address. What was I to think about the remarks Mom used to throw me while I was at university, like, “This is not a hotel”? “Everything was fine until you came home.” I heard that more than once when arriving right after classes at the university - late or early afternoon. This could have been the kind of refrain that kept me away a lot too, and reinforced the other criticism often thrown my way that “Home is not just a place to hang your hat”. In my final year, when I had to get decent marks, I had to study in the library, and came home in the evening after it closed, because otherwise I would have been yanked from my books to do household tasks regardless of essay and exam deadlines.

Now every time that sort of memory floats up to the surface like a dead body, thanks to the power of EFT, I can also use the mantra of Ho’onoponopono for healing and cleansing. I don’t know what I did to arouse all that family anger, and it doesn’t matter. I just say, “I love you. I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.” I’m saying that with compassion to me and everyone involved in the memory, no matter where they are now.

Before I married Paul in 1964, I was really ill with pneumonia, with repeated colds and flu and from that typhoid shot that left me feeling I was going to die. I arrived on my first visit to Europe, skin and bones. Paul took over as my care-giver. I got a lot better over the years of my marriage, but still got lots of colds and flu and migraines. I would wake up at night to find him standing over me with a remedy for coughing, which had awoken him (a light sleeper with apnea that was never diagnosed).

After Paul died in 2005 at the age of 87, I was on my own, and it was my turn to look after me. Thanks to his loving memory, I got better and better! Less worry about him, about me. Headaches disappeared. Colds and flu had less power. I could picture him coming and caring about me, and that was an enormous comfort. I no longer feared punishment if I did fall ill. I accepted myself when I did. EFT is a great help there with, “Even though .... , I love and accept myself.”

Right now I have a cold that I had put on the back burner and tried to ignore. Doesn’t make it go away, just disguises it. I realized it was interfering with my treatment for sleep apnea, recently diagnosed. Thanks to a session of EFT to point out that this a good time to face any buried resentments and fears and also to apply tried and true self-healing approaches to enhance the effect of CPAP treatment for sleep apnea.

I have tools for health: my own wise mind or higher consciousness, my guides in spirit - Sai Baba, my spirit guides, angels, archangels. I know something of EFT and can practice Ho’onoponopono, to sweep away dark, clinging junk from the past and from others, and to clear the house or temple that is my body, mind and spirit letting in more and more Light and Love.

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